I am almost done. Dammit it's been a looong journey. It doesn't feel like it now, but I know it was. I went thru so much in such little time. I had to juggle with so many things: a lack of motivation for school; 2 relationships, finishing one, beginning another; family problems; balancing my school time with play time (big big issue this semester)... just so many things.
I have the feeling I'm gonna do pretty poorly this semester. I mean, Spring is always my hard semester, but I really think this one's gonna be a 3.0 only :/ I am scared. It really sucks, but I deserve it. All I kept doing was putting things off and doing something else instead. This really took a toll on me, it was pretty much a vicious circle: I'd be feeling down and tired and all I could really motivate myself to do was anything that would make me happy, which is anything BUT school :/ *sigh* I did HORRIBLE... This is the semester I've skipped classes the most, I kept getting low grades on my tests, dropped a class, and might even get my first C (if I'm lucky enough). I really really need to work on that. I'm very grateful that this semester will be done on wed, that I get 3 months of vacations, and that I can start from scratch once more... Its amazing that I can start from scratch again. Forget all that happened and learn from my past experiences. Its unbelievable how much I learn about myself and all that surrounds me with every passing semester. I grow so much but its freaking tough! This semester I went thru a phase that I'd cry about once a week... *sigh* I probably shouldn't be sharing this so publicly but I am. And it helps.
On the other hand, I have the feeling that things will get better now. I really really hope so. I've matured a lot, learned a lot about relationships and staying true to myself (that was a big trial). I am ready to tackle what is up next.
Thanks to all of you that have been supporting me throughout this really tough semester.
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